It's been a while

Wow.. it's been a WHILE!

I'm a mother of 2 girls now.. and loving them so much!! I think from 1 kid to 2 kids wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I mean it's still hard... but not as hard as I would imagine. I thought I would cry my eyes out everyday, trying to survive. But the reality is, I can do it :D.

Since I already know what to expect, so everything is look more easier. Especially comparing Cae to Carissa when she was a baby. Carissa was one tough baby I can tell you that. But Cae is pretty laid back.. sleeps alot.. and if she's full, diaper clean, no gas, she just likes to chill :)

Last night I decided it's time for me to go back to work. I need the extra income.

I've been married for almost 5 years now, and it's still hard for me to ask for "pocket money" from my own husband. I grew up in a family where we don't ask for money from anyone (including my parents). My dad gave us allowance since I was 6 yrs old, and it's daily allowance. So it's up to us whether we save the money or we use it to buy stupid stuff (like candies).

Then when we were in Junior High, the allowance became weekly allowance. By High school we have monthly allowance. So I hardly ever asked for money from my parents. Because they already given us certain amount and we have to make sure we didn't waste them all and have savings.

ANYWAY, so I hardly ask Carson to help me paying my credit cards or my car payment (unless I don't really have any income). Until now, I don't like to ask him for money (unless he offers me :D).

That's why I need to go back to work. I have some jobs from home, but I don't want to count on it too much. Since it's not a steady income.

I just purchased a patio furniture for our front porch :) They will ship it to our house for only $25 :D